As time has been going by I have been questioning whether or not I was really called to Estonia. Did I hear God correctly? It's funny how time can really affect someone. Fortunately, I have been hearing some sermons that reflect the doubts that I have been having and it isn't till I write this post that I realize now how much those words have impacted me.
We have been following the story of David before he became King. It is an amazing story filled with laughter, joy, pain, sorrow, treachery, and much more. It's a story I knew before, but like many stories we hear, we consolidate them and because of that, we miss the emotions and trials of the character sometimes. In David's case it is particularly important to know the emotions he faced on his journey to become king.
Like many stories it has a beginning middle and an end. The beginning of David's story as we know, starts with someone prophesying that he will be King of Israel. If you continue to read, David does eventually become King, but the process was a long one (over 15 years) for him and thats the section I want to focus.
Even though I wasn't there, I know David, at times, felt doubt in prophecy to become King of Israel. I mean, when you look at scripture, it's pretty evident that to go from being praised for killing Goliath, to a warrior among the troops of Saul, to being hunted by Saul, to having a chance to kill Saul, to..... you get the point. Being hunted by Saul, the current King of Israel, would put doubt into what someone prophesied to me many years previous. This is where faith plays a roll. We often need to take a leap of faith in order to fulfill the goals ahead.
David had a long a complicated journey and if he would have known how difficult this journey would have been prior to starting, I am not sure if David would have accepted the challenge. I don't think I would have. There were times in my life if I knew the difficulties of what I would face ahead I would not have choose to go down some of those paths because of the pain it brought. And I think that's why God never gave David the 'journey' section of the story, only the goal of being King. I am glad David kept taking that leap of faith, if not the world would have been a much different place.
Even though I have doubts sometimes, I need to take those leaps of faith like David did even when times are tough. When is comes down to it, I only know one force out there that thinks going to Estonia to preach the Gospel is a bad idea.
